I have always believed the saying "If you can't handle me at my worst, then you don't deserve to see me at my best." If I believe that so much then why do I find myself having a hard time handling my one "friend" in particular at her worst? I just don't understand her sometimes. I have completely stopped talking to her, but she has always found some way to be a part of my life. So it is hard shoving her out of my life altogether.

The truth is I keep telling myself I don't care if I ever talk to her again, but I don't know how true that really is. I constantly find myself wondering what happened to us when we were supposedly such good friends in the past. Was it me or her who went wrong. So maybe since I can't handle her at her worst... I don't deserve to see her at her best.

It is always easier to see someone else's flaws before we see our own. I know that she is not the best friend I have ever had. I know that she has done some terrible things to me and to other people she calls friends. However... I honestly don't know what to do. I feel as if this problem will never resolve itself. I feel like I just want to tell her why I stopped talking to her. Unfortunatly I doubt that is possible because the moment I would even try to approach her she would walk off.

Any suggestions?!

On a lighter, more cheerful note I can officially get my license tomorrow! However I choose to wait a few more weeks so I have time to study and practice parallel parking. For my 16th birthday I had a few friends over where we beat up a Hannah Montana pinata, had a campfire(ooohhhh I love these), and sang karoake while stargazing. My parents took me to the Newport Aquarium with my friend, Katie so we could go pet the penguins. It was sooo much fun and they felt so cool.

Well this is pretty much all I have to report so for now that's it. I hope you have enjoyed the Stephanie Saga.
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Oh btw! I have a wonderful boyfriend! I forgot to add that. We have now been going out for 3 months(or as I would like to call it 1/4 of a year) and 6 days. lol.